Happiness Project - Day 3

Last night, in the dead of night, Nate woke up. Normally not a "happy" moment for either of us. Last night was different. I haven't been sleeping well, had been up a few times already and his company and hugs were a welcome distraction. I brought him to bed and he just lay his little head on my shoulder and cuddled for awhile. There is something so wonderful about that feeling with your child. Infinite love. Happiness.

Funk. Everybody is in a FUNK.

It's no secret that I have been in a funk. It has been a long couple weeks of mommyhood with little or no breaks from the kiddos. I teeter totter between looking at them with a feeling that my heart my burst if I love them anymore and pulling my hair out. It's a weird thing --being a mom.

But I am none the less, in a funk. The hubs and I are planning a trip to Vegas. I should be excited but I'm more worried about how we will pay for it and how the boys will be with us being gone. They are staying with their "Omi" and will be in great hands, but still...it's only the second time I will have been away from Jake and the very first away from Nathan. Freaks me out a little bit.

Happiness - Day 2

This post is about Jacob, again. Jacob tries my patience. Both of my kids do, like any children! Yesterday was one of those days where I see what could drive a parent to drink. We were stuck at the house and full of energy! Yesterday Jake lifted weights with me and then just spent some quality time hanging out with me while his brother took a nap. During that time he told me that I would always be his best friend. "Best Friends Forever" he said. He said it again when I put him to bed last night. Makes my heart happy to hear those kinds of things out of his mouth when he could say so much bad! Love him so much.

My "Happiness Project"

My goal ...or one of them for this year is to find a way to be truly happy with my life. To see the good before the bad in things and to look on the "sunny side" of life. There is always so much to be thankful for and we only get this one life we are given. Too much time is spent in the 'wish I hads' and 'might have beens'.

Happiness Project 2014 - Day 1

Last night I lay outside my oldest sons door...on the floor...in the dark. I was quiet. My husband had turned off the television so we could hear more clearly what he might be singing about. Jake had gone to bed almost an hour before but with the time change, it just wasn't tired. He was being good though, staying in his room and singing aloud about the days events, his favorite things and what we might do tomorrow. In those few moments before he realized we had turned the tv down, I listened with such happiness at the sweet voice coming from behind the door. Jake is a joy. He loves the world and learning and he loves us. I am lucky to have him and for me, this was a very happy moment.

Where has the time gone?

It's now 2014. I can remember ringing in the new year from 99-2000.....and since then,  14 years have passed. I have to ask myself, where has the time gone and have I spent it wisely. I'd say the majority of those 14 years weren't spent as wisely as I could have, but really, I was a child. Many hard lessons were learned, much time wasted on the wrong people doing the wrong things. Now fast forward and here we are sitting on January 3rd of 2014. I have two kids. I'm turning the dreaded 30 this year. It's crazy how much time has flown by. I try not to think about how quickly life is passing. How much older week to week my boys look and act. It makes me so sad to think of their fleeting babiness but so proud to see how intelligent they are and how much they are already growing as little people.

I have a few goals for this year.

1. Spend more time interacting at the boys level with them.
2. Be the healthiest I have EVER been in my life by 30.
3. Get ahead of all my problems - mostly finances
4. Find happiness in what I already have (which is so much)
5. Let go of the little things.
6. Find something that helps our family our financially and me mentally - something gratifying

I'll let you know how it goes. Happy New Year.